Rana

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Deceased Gladiatrix

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Sand and blood and ghosts

April 13

Rana chuckled when Thessala finished her sentence, then she shook her head, "That was not what I would say. I just wish I knew this, before." She said and felt good, with Thessala's arms wrapped around her oddly both firm and soft body. It felt nice, being this close to her. And it had felt good, kissing her earlier. Just like that day in the arena, the day Thessala tried to show it all to her, because it was Rana's first real fight with a huge audience. And Rana didn't get it, but at least she kissed Thessala then. If only she knew what Thessala really felt about her then... but it was too late.
Thessala suggested to use the time they had left and then she felt warm lips against her own. Rana returned it, almost hungrily, as if it would warm her up and bring her back to life... but Thessala broke the kiss, wondering how Rana would be remembered.
"I never knew I had to think about that." She replied, "I guess... I want to not be forgotten. They say that as long as the memory is alive... I am still here, somehow." She said and pressed a hand to Thessala's chest, "I will be here. But now..." She leaned closer, "I am here." And she kissed Thessala again, as if she never wanted to stop again. As if she would never let go again. As if it was the last kiss and she had to make it last. And maybe it was. She closed her eyes, it felt so intense that she almost wanted to cry, if she had any tears to do it with.
@Chevi
Sand and blood and ghosts

April 11

Thessala sighed in a way she'd never heard her do it before, and then said she'd like for Rana to be near her. The next moment Rana was pulled down on the bed next to Thessala and the gladiatrix wrapped her arms around Rana. It was lovely, warm, comforting... she hadn't been held like this since she was forced to leave her home and her lover there. Thessala promised she'd remember her.
"You're sweet." Rana said with a small grin, "I never knew you could be like this. I kind of wish..." She trailed off, the smile fading... she shook her head, wishing for something that never happened and never would happen was stupid, "It doesn't matter. Wishes don't matter." She wrapped an arm around Thessala too, "I won't forget you either. I don't know what's going to happen now, but... it's all so strange. What do you want to do now?"
@Chevi
Sand and blood and ghosts

March 21

She wasn’t sure how or why, but it was as if something had shifted today. Rana had been around ever since she left her body behind. She’d been watching Thessala and she had been watching people at the ludus, she had been here. And she was still here. But it was as if Thessala seeing her, and talking to her, and the words that were said… it was as if it had done something.
She wondered if Thessala could even feel her touch now, she didn’t know how visible she was or how long it would remain like this. But she didn’t want to go. She wanted to be right here, with Thessala. Forever. It felt so good and right. Thessala said she could feel her touch and Rana smiled back at her. Then she even felt the other woman pull at her and Rana joined her on the bed. Thessala said she could stay for as long as she wanted.
“I’m not sure I can. I feel that… I am not the same as this morning.” Rana said, it was so hard to explain this to someone not dead, because there was no way Thessala could know what it was like. To be here and not be here. To feel things but you were unsure how you felt them, because it was more a sensation, a strange kind of tickle or pain, but she had no body to feel it with…
“It is both good and bad, I guess. That I’m not the same. I think it’s because of you. Because now I know…” I know that you love me… her smile was sad, as she reached a hand up to touch Thessala’s cheek, “I thought I’d come here tonight for something else, but I just want to be near you. As much as I can.”
@Chevi
Sand and blood and ghosts

March 1

It took a few moments, but then Thessala was looking straight at her, as if she could see her. So she could see her, still. Rana wasn't sure for how long though. She didn't know how or why she knew this, but she knew she wasn't as firm as earlier. At least Thessala could see her though and now she said it out loud too. Rana came closer to her, smiling, seeing the hand that was reaching out for her. She touched it. Could Thessala feel it? She could feel Thessala's warmth.
"Maybe?" Rana said, "It is confusing. I am here, but... I sense I may not stay?" She didn't know how she knew this, she just did, "Can you feel my touch? I can feel yours." She asked, standing or floating or at least being present in front of Thessala, who still sat on the bed. She was fierce in the arena, but cleansed and calm as she was now, she was beautiful, Rana thought. She was beautiful and she loved Rana... "I don't want to not be here." She then said, but was it even her choice? And if she wasn't here... where was she going?
@Chevi
Sand and blood and ghosts

February 9

Rana was near the arena for the rest of the day - these were good games and there was plenty of blood to be had. She thought she sensed other beings, maybe they were much like herself, but there was no contact and besides, all she could think about was Thessala. She promised to come. And she did often drift around at the ludus, because the arena here and the ludus were the only places in Rome where she belonged. It was like she was almost bound to return to those places, always. And especially to Thessala; she was drawn towards the still living gladiatrix like a moth to a flame. The same happened now. The sun went down and she found herself moving into the ludus. The guards didn't see her. Wasn't she... able to be seen? Thessala had seen her. Maybe she could only be seen by those who wanted to or needed to see her?
She found Thessala on her simple bed in her simple room. She'd been cleansed, there was no more blood on her and her clothes had been changed too. But she was there and she loved Rana and Rana loved her. Why hadn't they ever said these things before the earthquake?
Rana watched Thessala quietly at first. She had wondered if they could do anything but kiss, but now she wasn't sure. It had been a few hours since the last blood already. She felt she was fading again.
"Thessala... I am here." She didn't know if she was still visible enough to be seen and heard, but she had to try.
@Chevi
Sand and blood and ghosts

December 16, 2020

Rana did not know where she'd go. Since she had not gone anywhere, she thought that maybe those places where you went, when you died... maybe they were not real at all and this was as far as you went. On the other hand, why then was Rome not populated with spirits like Rana? She had not encountered anyone like herself. Sometimes she had a feeling that something or someone was there, but she had not been approached in any way until Thessala saw her today. And now they were kissing, and talking... could a spirit make love, she wondered? If she could kiss, why not? What she wouldn't give to be the one to make Thessala cry out with pleasure! But she didn't know.
What she did know was that all that mattered was that Thessala loved her and she loved Thessala. Her lover, because that's what she was now, sighed and... was she crying? She said she did not want Rana to go and didn't want her to be stuck either.
"I don't want to go either. But... I haven't gone yet." She said and smiled through the odd sadness floating in the air between them. Then she looked up, guards or whatever they were, approached them, probably to pick up Thessala or give her information. Rana moved away from Thessala, but only enough to shrink into the shadow by the wall. She didn't want anyone else but Thessala to see her. She was looking at the stunning gladiatrix though.
"Wait for me tonight." She said before the people approaching spoke up. She didn't know if she would get another chance now, or ever. But if she could visit Thessala tonight, she would. If she had not faded again. She'd have to find more blood, so she could stay!
@Chevi
Sand and blood and ghosts

November 23, 2020

Was she maybe not dead after all? She could feel Thessala’s warmth, the softness of her lips, she could even taste her. And not just her, to be honest. The blood from the battle had also come on Thessala’s lips, making her even more attractive to Rana. So she was definitely still dead. Or not. She was in between, wasn’t she? A spirit, like Thessala said…
When the kiss broke, they looked at each other and then Rana had to know what that kiss meant… what it was for. She had a feeling, but she wasn’t sure and she had to hear it said. For some reason, she had to hear it said.
And Thessala sighed by her question. Rana wanted nothing more but to comfort her, but how could she? Then Thessala spoke. She whispered it, but it sounded so loud to Rana. Rana blinked, but then she smiled. Unable to shed any tears in her odd state of being, she had to do what she could do. It made her feel happy inside. Like something had been released. Thessala apologized but Rana shook her head, there was nothing to apologize for! And she wondered if Rana’s people had a place they went, when they died.
“There are places for the dead. Among the gods. Or in the underworld.” But it was only people who died fighting, who went to the gods. And Rana, she hadn’t gone anywhere at all. Instead she was here and now she finally knew why. Thessala’s words made her feel so good. And they could only do that, because what Thessala said was what Rana felt.
“It doesn’t matter. Nothing matters. Only that… Thessala… I also… love you.”
@Chevi
Sand and blood and ghosts

November 20, 2020

Thessala did what she could do and there was not any way Rana could have asked for more. It was not Thessala's fault their door was locked and it was not Thessala's fault that Rana was not yet among the top gladiatrixes, so she didn't have to be in that cell with those you could afford to loose in an earthr quake. None of that was Thessala's fault. And there was no point in dwelling anyway. You couldn't go back. Rana didn't even know what happened to her body afterwards. She stayed at the ludus, never too far away from this woman right here.
She was now touching both of Thessala's arms and a tear rolled down Thessala's cheek. It surprised Rana. She never really saw her friend like that. And she wondered what it was that Thessala needed. It had to be now, for some reason. But Thessala said nothing. Instead she kissed Rana. Now they knew they could touch, they were kissing! At first she was surprised and then she was pulled in by the warmth of a living human being, showing her affection. She returned the soft and lingering kiss and felt she moved closer to Thessala. Her warmth was perfect.
Then the kiss broke. Rana couldn't help but smile. So Thessala wanted to kiss her. And Rana had wanted to kiss her too, to be honest! Many times, actually! But what did it mean? She had to know...
"Do you... love me?"
@Chevi
Sand and blood and ghosts

November 19, 2020

Almost there hadn't done anything for Rana. She had needed the door to be broken down and it wasn't. It was too late anyway, when it happened, because the walls had crumbled and she'd been buried in rubble. Buried and bloody. It had been so strange, in the beginning. She'd seen herself. But she hadn't known what was going on and it was all so confusing. Time had passed since then and Rana was more relaxed. Until now anyway; until today, when Thessala heard and saw her. Why today of all days? It wasn't like Rana had been gone. Something must have shifted in the odd spirit-world.
Thessala's breath caught too and she said she was sorry, but Rana just smiled, even if it was a sad smile, "You did what you could." Rana said softly and then she'd reached out a hand to touch Thessala's arm. And she could feel it. Could Thessala feel her fingers too? Their eyes met and she smiled again, when Thessala said she could. Rana came closer then, placing fingers on Thessala's other arm too.
"I think... I need you to tell me something. Or you need to tell me something. I don't know if there will be another chance." She didn't know if Thessala would see or hear her again, when she had not until now. She didn't know if it would be like this tomorrow. She wanted to be near Thessala but she also felt strangely tired sometimes, as if she wanted to rest but couldn't. And she felt now that it was because of Thessala.
@Chevi
Sand and blood and ghosts

November 17, 2020

She wondered if she could really touch Thessala and if she'd feel it. If Thessala would feel it and if Rana would. But did she dare? Would she be disappointed? Meanwhile Thessala was looking at her, Rana, who was right in front of her again, strangely present and yet ethereal at the same time. As if she was floating rather than standing. She asked what Thessala needed from her, since she said she needed many things earlier.
Thessala sighed, said she didn't know. She told about the day, that day, how she'd tried to get to Rana and Rana nodded.
"I know. I heard your voice." She felt her voice almost broke as she said it and she looked away. She remembered that day. The day everything went black. And then she was... here but not here. Now Thessala called her a spirit. But she wasn't surrounded by others like her. Maybe not everyone who died ended up like this. She blinked, but she felt unable to cry. She had no tears to cry.
Instead she did what she thought about earlier. She reached out with her hand to touch Thessala's arm. She was warm and there were scratches and sprays of dried blood there. She ran her fingers over it and looked up at Thessala again, "Can you... feel my hand?"
@Chevi

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Sand and blood and ghosts

Started by Thessala · October 20, 2020

Fall had come to Rome, and with it, the Ludi Augustales. In honor of the divine emperor, grand events were organized, the arena was decorated and the rows of seats filled with people, from the most august imperials and the Vestal Virgins all the way up to the women and slaves in the top rows. Every gladiator in all the ludi who could fight was put into the schedule; the most famous ones as often as it was possible, provided they did not get seriously injured or killed along the way.
It was the first games since the earthquake Thessala was to participate in.
The other gladiatrix facing her in the arena was someone whose name she did not bother to learn. She rarely bothered to learn names since Rana. They were not the only duel in the arena; there were three other pairs scattered around the sands, for extra spectacle. Still, Thessala felt like she was being watched. Not by the thousands of people in the seats... maybe by the gods? She shook her head, the beads and amulets twisted into her hair tinkling. She raised her two swords, crossing the blades in front of her.
Might as well get on with it.
@Atrice
Move Quick, You Might Avoid Damnation

Started by Echo · June 18, 2020

June 30th - The Earthquake!
It started early in the morning, when the sun had just started to peek over the horizon. Curled around her injured arm, Annis slept fitfully, her dreams filled with murky images of Britannia. The island in her dream began to tremor, shaking with great magnitude. Suddenly, she awoke to the sound of someone screaming, “Earthquake!”
They had all felt the tremors the past few weeks, but Annis hadn’t been too concerned about it. Until today, that was. Alexius was here; after another enjoyable night, the pair had fallen asleep. Annis clumsily got out of the bed and shook him awake. “Get up, Alexius, earthquake! We need to get out!” The young woman then rushed outside, knocking on doors as she went to warn others of the danger. The gods were angry today.
Tag: anyone at the Ludus Magnus! @Chevi @Atrice
The gif game

Started by Gothic · October 7, 2019

Basically reply with your character responding to the one above with a gif of their reaction to the person above.